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1-29-14

Keeping it real. More positive today and things have been going good thus far with school, home, and at the gym. All I've been thinking about is how I can continue to change my workout regiment and make it better. This is one part of my life that I've been learning how to control: my body, although, my diet is another story.

I've noticed everything tastes saltier and that my pallet is evolving. I feel the urge to eat more fruits and veggies. I've even considered going gluten-free just to see how my body would react as an experiment. Supposedly, 80-90% of all people have an intolerance to gluten products (i.e. wheat, barley--mainly grains).

Anyhow, I've been noticing some changes to my body. I'm losing inches off my waist and seeing some definition forming in my shoulders, arms, and legs. My big weak-points are still my back, abdominal, and trapeziums. I know buying wrist-straps would greater my chances of increasing my muscle mass in my weak areas. I've been avoiding my abs for way too long. My weak attempt at a few measly ab-workouts during my post-workout was a complete failure. Time to do more research on ways to strengthen that muscle group.

I've been trying to workout earlier so I can spend more time with my wife. She's a great help around the house and our sole financial provider for this family. She is truly amazing. I love the way she sits at the fireplace after she gets home and doesn't have a care in the world--for about an hour or so before going nuts over work and the apartment. I love her to death.

School has been my "weak-focal" point. Maybe it's because I've been attending college since 2004 and the burnout has been getting to me. No... Even with my challenges, I've been making strides to make the most out of my nursing education. I'm adapting to new study habits (NCLEX is a beast in itself) all the while doing my best to intentionally work my butt of in my first semester of nursing clinical(s). It's no joke but I enjoy the pace we're going; more-so because I just passed my medication calculation exam for the second time and I've been celebrating in my mind all afternoon. Work pays off. Notice how I didn't stress out "hard". I knew what I had to do; making the minute mistakes I made during the first exam were ridiculous, but, I have to say it's been a good refresher to look at the math work over again. It's only going to help me for clinicals.

I know things can get better. I know things will get better. I'll do everything I can to excel and make my family proud. After-all, my wife isn't working so hard for nothing. I've got to hold on to my promise and have a great career as a nurse. Then, God-willing, we may be able to start a family. That's a whole 'nother topic I'll address at a different time. Well, it's getting late. I suppose I should get off this thing and rest up. Have a good one world.

Procrastination and...

The world as we know it continues to revolve and yet I find no simpler pleasure than to sit back and do nothing.  I know full well the consequences that will follow in a few hours when I am shuffling my papers and books to make sure I've "read" through my homework. Being a nursing student requires organization and setting priorities, and yet, I cannot get myself to the next task ahead. I've asked myself many times reasons why I am the way I am; and yet, my own mind simply trucks-on carefree without a doubt.

I know what I should be doing but choose not to follow it. Is this really the work of a non-motivated nursing student or is it because I'm being "controlled" by my wants rather than my needs? Habits? Addictions? Too much ego (knowing I can do it all)? Lack of self-control? Maybe, but maybe not.

I am part-time procrastinator, part-time obsessive-compulsive. It just depends on the day. Today I have many things to complete: chapters to read, medication calculation exam to study for, clinical paperwork to complete; and yet I find myself blogging. Maybe I need some release and this is the only way to do it(?). Whichever, it's only 8:20 a.m. and I feel like I have the whole day ahead of me.

Why not waste time playing video games, searching workout clips on Youtube, all while incorporating my studies and work on cleaning this apartment up. I can do it all. I guess it's true what they say, nurses can do it all (at once). 'Heh', spoken like a true sophomore. My thoughts are everywhere and I can't find a way to end this blog so I'll keep it short today. Anyone who cares not to care please feel free to show some love or dislike. Either way I may or may not get to you.